Nonsense

Haven’t thought of him in years and memory can’t be relied on too well to recall 100% of what happened but 85% is undoctored truth.

Assault is a strong word but it’s the correct one for what happened. He is or was an ob/gyn that caused physical and mental anguish through actions and words.

I was actively having a miscarriage and he did things to me I still don’t have words for and because there was no one in that room except he and I and there’s no record of it having happened.

What stands out is the point at which he slammed down the speculum and other tools he was using and yelled “Why are you crying?! This doesn’t hurt!”

I was terrified of the guy so my body and words went into full freeze mode. He left the room, slamming the door behind him without a word and returned a minute later to tell me I was going to surgery.

I don’t remember how I got from that room to the surgery table and certainly don’t remember the surgery. I only remember waking up and hearing babies crying and him coming over to my bedside and speaking to me as a completely different person.

He was soft, gentle and kind with his mannerisms and words. I was confused, scared, loopy and just beginning to feel the grief.

I hope he’s no longer practicing.