Nonsense

“____ is what i need and _____ is what i want,” he said.

you gotta say it without holding your breath in fear that the answer isn’t the one you want. you gotta believe that whatever the answer is – is in your favor.

it’s been a while since i outright asked for a job but recently i did. they didn’t say no and they didn’t say yes. in cases like this i consider the answer to be a no even if at some point they say yes.

it’s been even longer since i asked someone if they liked me cause i never asked anyone if they loved me. i figure everyone loves me until they don’t.

and either you know for sure i’m on your team or you don’t and if you don’t then i got no reason to play for you.

when you make yourself an option after feeling ‘no’, you decrease the odds of being able to stand in your own corner. and fuck, i’ve been beat up enough to figure out that there’s a difference between holding up boxing gloves trying to intimidate versus punching the shit out of someone cause you got nothing to lose.

a man came to survey the roof today without telling me. it took every ounce of ptsd control not to fatally injure him. the fear it instilled pissed me off and i had to shut myself away to calm down.

even when you know something (or someone) is coming you may not be prepared.

best you can do sometimes is stand in your corner waiting to see if they’re with or against you. respond accordingly. ain’t no one gonna guard that heart ‘cept you.