Nonsense

thoughts wake me in a sweat
not sweat
wipe my eyes in anger

wrote that i didn’t care
a lie
i’m not that hard

be kind. be loving
i think to myself
before replying

thinking back to
discussions on compassion
wondering if mine is real

truth is, an occasional
fuck you and fuck off
can be healthy for the soul

not in a million years
did i fathom
being raped

would be used as character
arsenal

more than one
fuck you
gurgles in my belly

it’s 4am
and he’s right
i’m pissed

another reminder
lots more work
left to do