Nonsense

is there some kind of retention kick back?

every two weeks he checks in on me to ask how class is going. i ignore him cause my brain is on fire and has placed an unannounced yet fervent hard stop on information retention.

i want to tell him i’m not stupid so much as overwhelmed but feel more comfortable maintaining silence. how can i explain the ambivalence of wanting to do everything so much i can’t commit fully to any one thing?

he calls and i answer by accident.

i tell him i’m doing well and he sounds happy. truth is he could give a rats ass so long as i stay in the program – in a program – any program…

when you get older you pee more at night.

no one warns you about the variables inherent with aging. that counselor is gonna lose sleep someday just like me and not because of stress.

just prostate evolution.